However, as my freelance career starts to kick off, and as I desperately pitch one feature idea after another and try to develop my own industries, I'm finding that I have even less time during the day than I did before. At first I was focused on spending every minute of the day doing fun things together. I got into a routine of going outside, playing with the dog,  sliding climbing, jumping, swinging then some reading followed by a tea party lunch and then her afternoon nap.

While she lay her head down for a bit I'd try to cram all of my emailing, cleaning, cooking, phoning and writing into those precious minutes and then the dedicated time would start again. This week, however, it's been quite different.

She was encouraged to paint and stick and play but when these failed to entertain after a while, it was back to Barney. I ran between her and my PC every so often to disperse hugs, kisses, juice, cookies and cuddles but when I finally put her to bed tonight I wondered if this was enough. Was my time spent with her this morning enough of a focus for her?

I can't help but compare myself to a preschool. What would she be doing with them? Am I teaching her enough? Or am I just a paranoid Mommy, a product of a neurotic internet and a news-hungry world that makes mountains out of molehills. Now if only I could remember what my parents did when I was her age. I have a feeling I was left to my own devices and that nobody really worried about it that much. But I could be wrong.... Perhaps I'll only find out when she's an angry teen with issues of neglect! hahah.

All my love 

D Mom to Lindi

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